sad - changes

I am sad. My coven is in a holding pattern. No rituals for the time being. I have my own and I have the public rituals...so far. I'm sure Andi will help with those, and Pandora. But, my one and only current covenmate is not someone I want to do ritaul with at the moment. It may be selfishness on my part...ritual mya be just what he needs. But, I am his sponsor and am getting a lot of shit on that side and I do not want to be the only one to hold it together anymore. So, it saddens me but it was my own doing. I may be goddess but I am not his higher power. He needs to connect with another entity for that. I am giving all I can. I know it sounds like whining, and it may be. But it is what it is. If anyone reads this and has a thought, let me know. I fell like I'm just being a bitch but, then, setting boundaries always makes me feel like that.